You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!

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How to Cope with Cancer

Thursday, March 29, 2012 2 comments
You can also apply it to anything that tries to bring you down =)

1. Problem solving
2. Information seeking
3. Fighting Spirit
4. Positive reinterpretation
5. Self/Cognitive Restraint
6. Seeking social support
7. Expressing feelings
8. Using humor
9. Seeking religion, faith, and prayer
10. Acceptance

Thanks to technology & social networking I can do these things hehe...

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life" Proverbs 13:12

Miracles do happen! Believe it!

Friday, March 23, 2012 0 comments
Thanks Steph for sharing this with me!

This is a story about a breast cancer survivor diagnosed at the same age as me, fought it, and was able to have a baby. Most docs say you can't have babies after Chemo! The key is to live a non toxic lifestyle and healthy eating. :)

Click here to visit Allison's Blog!

Pain in the left arm

Tuesday, March 20, 2012 0 comments
Woke up to the screaming sky and what feels like a bruise inside my arm between my armpit, elbow, and going to the back in the lattissimus dorsi area. Could be the lymphatic nodes but not too sure. When i touch the areas it is very tender. It was fine before i went to bed last night. Hoping it is not serious! Going to call the nurse tomorrow and she'll probably say take Motrin( ill ask for a high dose prescription :) ) and if it doesn't go away come in and have it examined. Yeah you take something to not feel the pain, but don't you want to know what's causing it? besides the boob cancer of course.

Interning @ SGK and other random blahs

Wednesday, March 7, 2012 0 comments
I was strolling to class one day passing the career center and stopped to look at the job postings and saw SGK positions on the board. I didn't plan on working during school, but this was only part time and flexible ours. Hey why not right? I applied that week, interview, and yay I am there! I never mentioned I have cancer until after. But yeah i will be helping with the races, health fairs, speaking in front of people about SGK and sharing my story! I think it'll be a good experience and meeting people!

As for the habaneros... My stomach hates it! It's so spicy I cried! I'm still eating it though because I go in for treatment next week so I'll look and see if there's any changes with my tumor marker level.

Other that I am physically mobile and feeling no pain, thank God and vitamins & vegetables! Lol