You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!


Habanéro & Garlic to Shrink Tumors?! Recipe

Monday, February 27, 2012 2 comments
You know I love me some spice! Ran across this recipe and testimonials that it shrinks tumors. Doesn't hurt to try and test it out and save my boobies from getting chopped off! Going to run to the store after school and pick up some peppers, I already take garlic extract supplements so I'll skip eating that. =P

(1) Freshly grate one habaneros pepper each day and put it on bread (persons unable to tolerate peppers can substitute freshly grated ginger (never from a jar).

(2) Freshly grate two cloves of garlic each day and put them on bread (since the "potent active ingredients from the peppers and the garlic disperse quickly... they must be grated each day, and eaten immediately". The bread used by Eidem was high quality Ezekiel sprouted bread [possibly found in the freezer section of health food stores and apparently at Publix]).

(3) Take 1-2 tablespoons of emulsified cod liver oil [or in certain cases evening primrose oil, see further details below] each day.

(4) Smother the grated garlic and habaneros peppers with real butter and eat it. No margarines of any type.

The use of both hot peppers (which contain capsaicin) and garlic as well as ginger is actually backed up by "mainstream" scientific research as all of these have been found to have anti-cancer activity, to wit for instance the article "How spicy foods can kill cancers" found at and "Pepper Component Hot Enough To Trigger Suicide In Prostate Cancer Cells" published at Also see eg Capsaicin and cayenne and Ginger and turmeric fight cancer.

Metastatic Breast Cancer ~ Made me teary =(

At Stage IV, the disease is no longer considered curable, with the exception of the estimated 1-3 percent of patients who, for unknown reasons, experience longterm survival with stable disease or complete remission following treatment. However, even when the disease does continue to spread, metastatic breast cancer can often be treated as a chronic disease for a number of years. Until very recently, estimated mean survival time for women diagnosed at Stage IV or with distant metastatic recurrence was about one to three years, but with improvements in care, including a number of new non-cross resistant treatment alternatives that have been approved by the FDA since the mid-1990s, survival time with metastatic disease appears to have increased significantly.

A recent study from M.D. Anderson Cancer Center13 that compared length of survival of metastatic breast cancer patients treated at their institution in five-year increments, found that median survival had doubled to 51 months (range 33-69 months) in 1995-2000 from a median survival of 27 months (range 21-33 months) only five years earlier, 1990-1994. Five years after their diagnosis with metastatic disease, 40 percent of these patients were still alive, as compared with 29 percent during 1990-1994. At the initiation of their study, during the period 1974-79, only 10 percent of patients were still alive at five years and the median survival was only 15 months (range 11-19 months).

The woman whose breast cancer has metastasized or who has been diagnosed initially at Stage IV must live with the reality that her breast cancer can no longer be cured, and that the disease is very likely to take her life. Consequently, the length of the remaining time she has to live, and the quality of that time, become issues of paramount concern. For her, access to the best care can make a significant difference, both in length of survival and in quality of life. With luck, excellent care, family support, personal motivation, and a skillful oncologist, her disease is likely to respond to a number of lines of treatment that can serve to extend her life-many of which may be quite costly. She may join a clinical trial, or try to get compassionate access to experimental drugs prior to their approval through single-patient INDs or expanded access programs.

Full Article Here

Oops forgot

Thursday, February 23, 2012 1 comments
The 13th visit to treatment went well and my body continuing to respond to the chemo :)

Still Can't Believe.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012 0 comments
I'm fighting cancer! Or that I am a one year survivor! =P I finally know what it means to be a survivor, I always thought you're one when you finished treatment and beat the cancer. But it can also mean that you're going through it, and you're alive and breathing everyday. Make sense I guess...

Anyway I am sitting here in the library trying to study, but I am too distracted. Like just out of nowhere saying in my mind I can't believe I have/fighting cancer. I've been tempted to try Adderall, I heard it is a good drug to to use for studying and bad for you at the same time, but you know I've been successful with school with out any help from drugs so I think I am ok... Wouldn't be good to take with my condition now.

Been up since 5 am, kinda tired!

12 Months

Thursday, February 9, 2012 0 comments
It's been a year now and I'm still here yay!

Unfortunately, I still have to continue treatment.

I'll be going in for my 13th treatment next week and get new updates on my prognosis.

I need to have the nurse poke me some where else cause i heard you can get vein scarring?! Idk haven't looked it up yet. And I refuse to have a port eewwww

So far I'm doing ok busy with school and that keeps my mind from my boobs, and also being distracted by my new love interest. Also avoiding being negative, getting angry, and surrounding myself with negative people. The pass few weeks I have been keeping to myself and rarely on Facebook these days not as much as i use to anyway cause I am on instagram now posting photos all day! Ha jk

All right peace out one love xo