You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!


Treating you like a person with diabetes

Friday, January 13, 2012 0 comments
I've been in la la land the last few days since I had a visit with the oncologist last Monday. I have to come back to reality some time. Good news I don't have to worry about having surgery anytime soon. Because there is not enough studies or substantial evidence that someone with my condition can be cured or live a long time. That's why he said he didn't recommend reconstructive surgery because he didn't want me to go through unnecessary pain and make sure I have a long quality of life. In the mean time I will be treated like someone with diabetes doing this treatment for the rest of my life. I'd like to think that I won't have to forever, be cured, and live long! Woot. Once the time is up for this hormone treatment, he'll switch me to another hormone treatment, the body will find other ways to be immune to it so we have to try something else that will work. If that doesn't work then later down the road I will have to do chemotherapy. (Aahhh shit my eyes are burning, eyeliner and tears don't go well together =P)

Well that's it... will start school next week that will keep me busy and the gym on campus. So, I don't have to think about my boobs. The rodeo is coming up, too never been going to check that out and go two steppin y'all.

Happy New Years 2012!

Monday, January 2, 2012 0 comments
We made it y'all, looking forward to be cancer free this year, I am tired of getting poked and pumped with toxic medications. Positive thoughts, love, and prayers. Thank you all for your love and emotional support! Kisses! I'll see the Onco next Monday about the boobie issues will keep you posted! =)

PS... Don't forget to Hang Up your PinUp for Pink Calendars. I am all out here in Texas, but my friends in California will be happy to send to you for purchase. Thanks!