You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!


The Mets Club

Wednesday, August 24, 2011 0 comments
No no not the baseball team!

I finally joined Young Survivors Coalition's website. It's like a FB for women fighting cancer, sharing life stories, treatments they are all doing, and survivors on there to support the newly diagnosed. There's a private group for mets only people. I haven't found it yet...still navigating the site. I didn't join sooner just because I didn't want to get emotional reading all the posts. But so far it is not so bad, there are tough girls on there with great attitude. I posted a topic to see if anyone is doing the same treatment I am doing and just to get an idea if it works, time frame, what happens next etc... I had a few replies...haven't found anyone yet. I do know...later down the road I have to get a mastectomy. When that time comes around... somebody just knock me out and wake me up when I get new boobies.

Anyway... I've decided to kick Komen to the curb (no offense) I really like YSC and plus it is not as big as Komen. The org caters more to my age range. Now I want to do the Tour De Pink Ride instead of the Komen Walk. =P

All Signs Points to Regression

Monday, August 8, 2011 2 comments
It's been two months since I last saw Dr. E the Oncologist. I saw him briefly this morning, I don't have any problems or symptoms to complain about. My visit today was all good news, minus the fact that I have to continue to be on this monthly treatment indefinitely. Which means I will be in Texas for a while.

The cancer is responding to the treatment and has been since the last time I saw Dr. E. when he told me it shrank a CM. But today it is still the same size, and not growing. My lymph nodes are normal, no lumps or swelling there, and nothing in my right breast. He said, that as long as I'm not having side effects or pain it is a good sign.

I see him again in October, he said to continue my lifestyle and I will be fine. LOL Yeah... I am on a healthy diet now that I am back from San Diego! I still believe it's what I am eating, vitamins, exercise, and positive thoughts/energy. Especially, all the love from my family, friends, and random people out there showing support to keep me fighting!

I have to admit it's not easy, I have my moments wondering about death, not waking up the next day, blacking out etc, but I try to block the negative thoughts that crosses my mind quickly. Not only that, negative people drive me crazy too... I don't need unnecessary drama. =P