You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!

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Summer Happenings

Monday, July 11, 2011 1 comments
Hello... all been pretty busy! What busy?! Yeah I know I am pretty excited that I am busy right now.

The whole month of June had my family from Alaska, Washington, California, and North Carolina visiting me. Good to see my fam bam staying under one roof! Imagine the movie "Home Alone" haha just kidding... Love and miss you all! I owe my grandma a hug though I totally ran off to the airport without saying good bye! Oops... got little excited to leave Texas for a short trip.

I recently got back from Vegas celebrating my friends birthday out there. It was fun minus the gambling and drinking! I'm glad I was sober... I actually got to see Vegas, eat(the times I was there I don't think I ever ate, only drink!), see how people act when their intoxicated which opened my eyes even wider not to go that route again (it really brings out the worst in people depending on their moods usually it's always negative)and document with my camera. Five days smelling cigarette smoke in the casino was way too long. Def not good for my health either. I'm still tripping out that people bring their kids to Vegas! WHY?! I don't think it's a family vacay for little kids or kids with disabilities... just saying...

I have a few days left before I fly out to San Diego this weekend. Really happy to go back and visit! Good thing I have comic con tickets otherwise I will be here in Texas all summer. I know I am already brown from the sun, I will wear 100 spf and spend time at the beach as long as I am there!

I have my 6th treatment this Friday without meeting the doctor. I see him in August. I had swelling pains under my left armpit for a few days and the nurse just told me to take motrin. If there's swelling under there it means that the lymph nodes are fighting the cancer invasion. Good to know I don't have to worry about it. Other than that I feel great physically and emotionally.

What else is going on... I am currently looking for a location to hold a Happy Hour fundraiser some where downtown in San Diego to raise money for the 3 day breast walk in November with my Iheartnom Girls. Contacted 1 location so far and no response guess they don't want business? I got a hold of friend who works in the industry and a location that will be the one... I just know it. Once I get a location and date set my team of photographers, make up artists, and models( my beautiful friends) will reveal our project we are putting together. Oh yeah I just want to mention that... I have always been modeling for fun/hobby before I was diagnosed just want to get that clear because someone said I'm using cancer to boost my ego because I like to take pictures. LOL doesn't make any sense. I do like to document everything through photography, not going to lie about that and I rather have an ego than not at all.

After my Summer vacay comes to an end I will be getting ready to go back to school!