You never know how strong you are...until being strong is the only choice you have

When I discovered the unknown lump in my left breast, I knew something was wrong I had a feeling that it was cancer, I tried not to think that it was not but I can’t lie to myself like that. I didn’t know much about breast cancer, until I was assigned to prepare a persuasive speech in front of my speech class. I decided on breast cancer, I didn’t know much about it anyway and did my research. I didn’t have to prepare much or write an outline. I managed to dig deep and talked to the class unscripted. I somehow tied it all to what I was going through from the discovery of the lump and doctor visits to the fact that you or someone you know has been effected by cancer and I am one of them. Even though I didn’t know for sure at the time if I had it or not but I felt that I did. My cheeks trembled fighting back tears and that deep pain in my chest as I talked about my personal life with strangers for the first time it was scary but good it was practice for breaking the news down for my family and friends... after class one of the students came up to me and said I’ll be here for you if you need me... I was so touched by her and to confirmed I am not alone in this journey. As with many people who experience cancer, we’ve all been told we have 5 years to live with stage IV terminal cancer and there’s nothing we can do for you after conventional treatment fails. BUT I believe there IS! There are people out there who live beyond the statistics and have turn over to alternatives to fight cancer for good. That means changing your diet, eating natural foods that keep you alive, have a positive attitude, surround yourself with positive people, and following a spiritual path. I believe healing and restoring my health better than it was before. I pray every day for this cancer to go away. I am able to live normally have the strength to live on with a purpose and believing I am healed!


Living with Cancer: Eight Things You Need to Know

Thursday, May 19, 2011 0 comments
I found this article on SA and read through it all. Why didn't I find it sooner?! Haha... the info on here is right on with everything you need to know about the cancer bad all in one article. Check it out...saves a lot of time then googling and not finding what you're looking for.


Deborah Rhodes: A tool that finds 3x more breast tumors, and why it's not available to you from TED


Abnormal Mass Losing...

Monday, May 16, 2011 0 comments
some inches 3.1 in = 8 cm (Last month)  to 2.8 in = 7.1 cm.
It's getting smaller whoop! whoop!

Dr. E. says he doesn't need to see me every month and he has substantial evidence this treatment is going well for me, and  he'll keep me on it indefinitely. Also, I should not rely on the tumor marker hehe...

The CTRC was busy today took for ever to get my infusion that only takes 15 minutes to drain. I almost cried... the nurse poked me multiple times and couldn't get any blood. I was like OK you can stop doing that just put the needle here where the other nurse drew blood. I got a big ugly bruise now eh... blood work is good a lot better than the last.

4 months!

Sunday, May 15, 2011 0 comments
I can't believe it...4 months in Tejas... I start my 4th treatment tomorrow, actually looking forward to it because  I want to know that the tumor marker has gone way down or just disappear. =)

I solved my insomnia problem... instead of working out in the afternoon do it in the evenings. I get pretty tired afterwards and fall asleep before midnight. I still wake up randoms hours through the night from hot flashes and play words with friends and then go back to sleep hah...

My application to UTSA is pending evaluation, I was nervous for a minute, but have a good feeling I will get accepted. Whoop! Really I just can't wait to have something to do and be super busy again!

Also I will have family visiting me next month this time! It's going to be a full house here. Coming from NC, OR, and AK.

All right y'all will report back tomorrow after my treatment!